Today has been another good day, and I must say I’m enjoying this patch of ‘smooth sailing’ – 5 days in a row! Now, if I can just figure out how to avoid those dramatic mood plummets which leave me vulnerable, I’d be fine.
I’m making good progress in that direction. I have an amazing therapist with whom I do great work. He’s a psychodynamic psychotherapist, which means he doesn’t guide the conversation as much as a traditional counsellor might – so all the insights come from me, prompted by the occasional question, observation or link made by him. Seriously, I am in awe of people who work in that mode. It might sound easy, but to be operating on so many levels – deeply listening; accurately recalling; actively linking; being mindful of one’s own reactions and counter-transference phenomena – AND resisting the temptation to say what must sometimes seem the bleeding obvious! – I think it’s a heroic undertaking.
Just in the last week we’ve made a major breakthrough, regarding why my mood has these dangerous plummets. It’s not a “brain” thing; I think it’s a “mind” thing, a certain weird defence mechanism which has become hard-wired into my psyche. Now I’m aware of the process which happens, I can slowly move that awareness into the present moment and eventually head those episodes off at the pass. Yay!
Also – in other exciting news – “My Mental Health Alphabet” is now available here in the iBookstore! I’m so proud and happy to have it for sale there. Double yay!
Obviously, I’ve had a totally awesome day. I hope you have, too.