It’s time! (well, maybe)

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I’ve got that itchy feeling at the back of my neck! It might be time for some major changes in life – changes which may herald a new era of health and happiness.

Well, maybe …

I quite enjoyed my break from group therapy yesterday. That, and the fact that in the last two days I’ve knocked off two long-term projects which have been hanging over my head, have made me feel a sense of optimism and enthusiasm which has been lacking for some time.

I feel as though I sleep-walked through most of February and March. The days slid by; I learnt more about myself, sure, but I spent a lot of time feeling bad – or simply not feeling anything at all. Yesterday, I felt as though I was waking up. The decision not to attend my day programme of group therapy helped. I felt empowered; I hadn’t realized what a burden it had become. I do understand that change involves discomfort, but I’m seriously wondering whether the strong negative feelings I have towards this group are an indication that it’s not the right group for me, at the moment?

I feel like taking up the reins of my own “treatment” again, of focussing on lifestyle instead of spending so much time wrapped up in a group which may or may not be doing me any good. I feel like targeting areas of my life which have slipped lately – diet and exercise – getting back to basics, if you like, instead of looking to others to define the parameters of my life.

Look, I’m such a “good girl” (other “good girls” will know what I mean!) that I’ll probably just continue with the group: quitting doesn’t come easily to me. However, I like the fact that I’m feeling energized in other directions.

Watch this space.

 

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13 responses to “It’s time! (well, maybe)

  1. hellokalykitty

    I’m watching Bree :). With fingers crossed lovely lady 😉

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  2. Sounds awesome. I look forward to reading more.

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  3. Ooh, I know all about being a good girl – what a pain in the ass! Do what feels right for you 🙂

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  4. Hope what ever healing journey you take brings good health and happiness. Big hugs.

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  5. Cal

    Wheee! What a positive post! I’m so excited for you, and so glad you’re feeling motivated to change!

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  6. This sounds great! I’ll be waiting for your optimism to seep over to my part of the world! 🙂

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  7. I like your phrase “define the parameters of my life”. I feel too that I am starting to learn to make choices for myself without falling into the good girl role of doing what I think other’s would like me to do. I am learning to be my own best friend and advocate.

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