I’ve got that itchy feeling at the back of my neck! It might be time for some major changes in life – changes which may herald a new era of health and happiness.
Well, maybe …
I quite enjoyed my break from group therapy yesterday. That, and the fact that in the last two days I’ve knocked off two long-term projects which have been hanging over my head, have made me feel a sense of optimism and enthusiasm which has been lacking for some time.
I feel as though I sleep-walked through most of February and March. The days slid by; I learnt more about myself, sure, but I spent a lot of time feeling bad – or simply not feeling anything at all. Yesterday, I felt as though I was waking up. The decision not to attend my day programme of group therapy helped. I felt empowered; I hadn’t realized what a burden it had become. I do understand that change involves discomfort, but I’m seriously wondering whether the strong negative feelings I have towards this group are an indication that it’s not the right group for me, at the moment?
I feel like taking up the reins of my own “treatment” again, of focussing on lifestyle instead of spending so much time wrapped up in a group which may or may not be doing me any good. I feel like targeting areas of my life which have slipped lately – diet and exercise – getting back to basics, if you like, instead of looking to others to define the parameters of my life.
Look, I’m such a “good girl” (other “good girls” will know what I mean!) that I’ll probably just continue with the group: quitting doesn’t come easily to me. However, I like the fact that I’m feeling energized in other directions.
Watch this space.