What I need today is …

… structure.

Since the dearly beloved went back to work, I’ve enjoyed “reclaiming the house” (so to speak), having my own space, etc. However, I haven’t been as productive as I would have liked.

Well, actually, that’s not exactly true: in some ways, I’ve been very productive – for example, writing – but other, less alluring, tasks have fallen by the wayside. Today is the day I am going to structure my time and get some overdue jobs completed.

I am not going to aim too high. I am not going to aim too high! Sorry, I had to type that twice, because my usual and less healthy way of operating would be to charge like a wounded bull and try to cram too much into one day, before collapsing in a heap. Instead, I’m going to map out my time today, realistically allocating tasks for each hour, including rest breaks. *yawn* It all sounds quite dreary, really – and I hate sticking to schedules! I think I’m something of an anarchist at heart. I rebel against even my own structures!

Does structure play a role in Β your mental health? It does for me – so long as “structure” can be loosely defined to include “the power to break the rules” πŸ™‚ Today, however, I’m going to write the rules, and then play by them.

We’ll see how it goes …


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11 responses to “What I need today is …

  1. I am the same. I need some structure but it needs to be self-defined and easy to change if I feel like it. Or don’t feel like it!


  2. I would simply go insane without my structure…

    Though my dealing with everything, I get to these strange “high” days (not manic just…. “good”) where I, thoughtfully, prepare myself for my down days by putting in place structure. On my last super high day (almost euphoric) I started up my blog. And I think I’ve been good so far about getting my thoughts out regularly on that. When I FIRST started treatment, after my suicide attempt, I put in place a budgeting method that I use to this day and would go absolutely bonkers without it. I have this blue highlighter that I use to highlight “paid” monthly payments on a calendar I have on the fridge. The b/f knows NOT TO TOUCH, or I go nuts. And Looooooooord forbit that highlighter gets lost. lol

    But that’s me. πŸ˜› I also love my crazy days of DO EVERYTHING NOOOOOOW! Yeah, it’s probably not healthy, but boy can it feel so fulfilling. Enjoy, and don’t go too nuts with the doing of stuff. And please do share what you do to structure, cause I’m always trying to find ways to help myself keep balanced and organized.


    • Today I’m going fairly easy, because I’m still a tad wobbly on my feet. I’m doing things in order. Right now, I’m spending a block of time in the blogosphere and catching up on a TV show I recorded. Then I’m going to spend a block of time in the garden. Then I will have a break. Then I’ll spend a block of time catching up on some administrative / legislative stuff to do with my business … and so on. I have certain minimum goals I want to reach today, certain things I want to tick off my “overdue jobs” list.
      It’s a bit sketchy so far as structure goes, but I know it will work for me.
      Another thing which works really well for me when I have to do something I loathe is “10 minutes on, 10 minutes off”. It might sound inefficient – you’re only “on” half the time – but when I have to get something truly odious done, this is definitely my go-to strategy. 50% productivity is infinitely better than 0% productivity! And I find because it’s only 10 minutes, I really work hard at whatever it is.


  3. Structure?? I am the queen of it. At the beginning of the year, I write out a list of things I want to achieve during the year…from big house tasks, financial things, challenges etc. I then get out my monthly planner, and allocate different things into each month. I also put in birthdays etc, and any other things that have come up. Then I do a weekly planner and work out what I can do for each of the jobs and allocate which day I am going to do it in. I also put down my working hours/locations, when I need to do my foodshop, housework, social activities etc. Then each morning, I set times to do each of the things…including breaks…….too much??? πŸ™‚


    • Um … Ellie, I hope you don’t mind me asking, but are you serious? If so, I have EXTREME structure envy!!! If you have that level of planning in your life, you could achieve anything. Wow, you have really inspired me! (And made me feel just a tiny bit inadequate!)


      • Please don’t feel envious…it has serious lapses!! But it is the only way I can get over procrastinating. ..and I love checking things off. I am super geeky with sort of thing. I also have a parallel obsession with stationery stores….the smell of paper, so many different kinds of organisers..pens…post its…heaven πŸ“‘πŸ“ŒπŸ“πŸ“πŸ“ŽπŸ“†πŸ“…πŸ“‚


      • OMG. Would you like to come, stay a while, and organize my life for me? Unfortunately there’s the very small chance I might accidentally murder you as you carry out your duties πŸ™‚

        Seriously, though, I am impressed. IMPRESSED.

        You’ve inspired me. Too often I let what I feel about a task get in the way of implementing it. I know this is part of my depression, but that doesn’t mean I can’t work to overcome it.

        Thank you so much XXX

        PS – really, want to come stay awhile and help me get my life sorted?!


      • I would love to come stay! ! Be warned though. I can be a taskmaster. Especially when it comes to thinks like de – cluttering. Mwahahaha 😈


      • Um … that’s most certainly what I need!!! But I don’t know whether I could handle it!

        Seriously, I need to get a grip on stuff. At the same time, I need to go easy on myself, because I’m still emerging from a really deep depression. Argh: where’s the balance?

        Anyway, I am making great headway today, churning through my List of Desired Tasks, so I’m happy about that!

        I would post a pic of my spare room / study, but it would most certainly give you nightmares πŸ˜‰


  4. I do joke, but you are absolutely right about finding the balance. I am in a place of recovery as well and am struggling to get that balance between my job, ‘life maintenance’, socialising and then managing my energy. Having floundered a bit over recent weeks I’ve been thinking how to do this…and it is only in response to your message that it has come. We are busy planning our ‘rest’ time around our our ‘doing’ time. Maybe we should look at it the other way round and plan doing around our rest?
    Anyhow, once again, you have inspired me to write a post on this topic of balance. (I am still outstanding on the exercise). My recent posts have been negative and a little self indulgent whereas my original intent had been to write a positive and inspiring blog.
    Btw, you must show me a picture of the spare room….I can imagine myself now smiling and rubbing my hands together in glee. I often think I should advertise my services to help people declutter…although there is a high risk I would be shot πŸ™‚


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