I’ve written a bit these last few days about feeling low in energy and not getting on with a big, boring, tedious job which needed doing.
Well, today I made major headway with the big, boring, tedious job (yay!) but am still low in energy (not so yay).
Perhaps my expectations were unrealistic, but I really thought that, having girded my loins and disciplined myself to do a big chunk of work – and, believe me, that was not easy – I’d feel that a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I imagined my head would clear, I’d feel fantastic, and float away on a dreamy cloud of self-righteous ecstasy! Truth be told, that was one of my major motivators to actually buckling down and getting the job done: “You’ll feel so good once you’ve ticked all today’s boxes,” I told myself.
I just feel tired.
Still, I can be proud that I have completed every task I set myself today. I overcame all the excuses my over-talkative head came up with for me to avoid working, all the depressed-mind stuff which gets in the way. It’s good to see all those ACT and CBT skills at work. I guess, as I type this, I am beginning to feel proud about that. Perhaps my psychological pleasure-trip will come after I’ve taken a break and overcome this fatigue from unaccustomed exertion.
Have you been stuck in Procrastination Central recently? Are you still there, or have you managed to leave the station? What gets your engines going if you’re stuck? I’d love to hear from you! You know what to do …