So, here’s a stream of consciousness I experienced today:
Yay! I’m feeling pretty great! I was up even before the dearly beloved this morning. I’ve caught up on my blogs – great to catch up with friends from around the globe. It was GREAT to go to the shopping centre and find the perfect gift for my sister’s birthday later this week. I remembered to pay that bill on time – a day early, actually! I did my stint on the exercise bike. Kickin’ the proverbial today!!!
Actually, while I’m on a roll, I really should tackle that big job I’ve been avoiding. It’s a pretty big one, editing an anthology for publication, and I put it on hold during last week’s heatwave, so I should get back to it today.
Yeah, it is a very big job, isn’t it? You know what, I’m actually feeling a bit tired. I know I should get stuck into it, but I’ll just … I think I’ll just have a little lie down first.
What am I doing, here on the bed? I should be working. I should be working! But I’m just so worn out. Dammit, I always do this, these days. What a loser I am.
Oh gawd, I feel like shit … I really should get up. I have no energy. I can’t get up. If I stay in bed, I’m no good, because I should be working. I can’t work, though, because I feel like shit. If I try to edit now, it won’t go well, and I’ll get really down on myself.
Dammit, I’m just going to roll over and try to go to sleep.
Feel like shit.
Time to get up and go to my therapist.
Well, I guess we’ve got plenty to talk about today!
Seriously, when I look back at this, I get a smile on my face 🙂 Talk about a classic case of depressed thinking, spiraling downwards!
Ah, depression. It’s wonderful that you can still make me laugh after all these years.